Sunday, July 30, 2006
i laugh cause i dun wanna cry... i smile cause i dun wanna sigh.. ppl say.. god always lets u meet many wrong ppl.. before meeting the right one.. so you will know hw to cherish her when u meet her.. oh god.. can u feel wad im feeling? i lost my appetite.. i lost my sense of direction.. i walk aimlessly.. i feel like a drifting soul now.. empty inside.. why ... its always like 1 year + .. den nxt.. something will happen to me.. something thts so hurting.. the cut is deep.. i dun feel the pain on my skin.. cause.. the pain inside me.. is much worst.. brought this upon myself.. im a dumb fucker.. cant even let a girl noe that i like her.. dun even have the fucking courage to talk.. and i say i can talk well.. with every setback u gain an experience.. yea sure i did.. i always did gain something.. like gain knowledge of how a bloody stupid idiot i am.. and after tht i will tink to myself.. if only time can be turned back.. if only.. wtf man.. frm e first time.. all of them.. the pain.. the memories.. will follow me forever.. sometimes.. once its too late.. there's really nth u can do.. some truths will never come to light.. i don understood any of them.. i never did.. i dun even understand myself.. i lost myself.. im jus an empty shell nw.. i really cant take it anymore... if im gone.. find me by the beach.. my soul shall be the breeze.. my blood shall be the sea.. i really lost myself .. hais
What a feeling!
